Oh, these pictures tug at my heart. What a mish-mash of emotions! On the one hand, I could not be more proud of this beautiful girl. I look at her eyes and can see the barely contained excitement. She was so very ready for Kindergarten, not just intellectually (she is one smart cookie!) but also it is so good for her to be out of my watchful eye for three whole hours a day, learning to interact socially with other people, making friends and learning how to learn.
Did you hear that? THREE WHOLE HOURS. That's three hours a day, five days a week! I can't look at her little face during that whole time, see her sweet smile or kiss her nose. Not even once! I also can't protect her from sneaky guys, playground bullies or Snickers bars. We dropped her off that first day and as soon as we got back to the car I bawled, and then told Marquis I had decided to homeschool.
But the very next day not only did I let her go back to school, I didn't even drive her there myself. Instead I put her on a bus with someone I don't know and just trusted them to get her to the right place. I would have cried that day, too, if Princess hadn't distracted me with her own distraught tears.
Despite all the crying, this has been so very good for my Sweetheart. She has already grown and learned so much, things I am simply not able to teach her. Just the leap in her confidence alone is amazing and so fun to watch.
And life will never be the same ever again.
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